Comments on: healing. huh.

By: jessica

jessica — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 06:11:07 +0000

wow, Richelle…thank you for sharing that, here…I’m sorry for all the pain that you’ve know intimately–but how amazing that you can now say that yes, life is good…this is beautiful, indeed. And thank you for the encouragement:)

By: Richelle

Richelle — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 02:07:37 +0000

Jessica,
Healing. Oh my I could seriously write a book on it. I have spent the majority of my adult life healing from my childhood. I won’t go into the details but the highlights are: my mother was an abusive drug addict and she physically abused me for 6 years. Our house was in constant turmoil because my parents fought constantly over money because of my mother’s addictions and how she was spending money on drugs. But I digress.

I wholeheartedly agree with you. Healing is very weird. I went through it off and on for many years. The last and final period of healing was without a doubt the weirdest but also the best because I finally came to a point of completion where I felt like everything was…well…GOOD. I felt normal and balanced for the first time in my life.

This was all very recent. And since then I have experienced that summer day you described. I don’t know you well but you seem to be a very strong woman to me. Healing doesn’t go on forever. There will come a time where you feel a sense of completion. And you will be a better woman for it.

You will have your summer day. And it will be more amazing than you could ever imagine. God Bless You Jessica!

By: jessica

jessica — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 05:05:52 +0000

yep, the kids are DEFINITELY in bed.

By: jessica

jessica — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 05:05:21 +0000

haha now can you say it like Joey from Friends??

By: jessica

jessica — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 05:04:27 +0000

yeah, I think everything is connected–the spirit and the body, the visible and the invisible–and so, everything sorta reflects each other…good point–healing the body and healing the soul can’t be that different, but still a little more confusing since it’s not like you can either walk on your soul or you can’t, you know?

By: jason

jason — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 05:00:48 +0000

Jonathan, I can hear the low rumble in your voice. The kids must be in bed.

By: Jonathan

Jonathan — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 04:54:22 +0000

Jess – so how are you DOING??

By: mom

mom — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 19:45:31 +0000

This was from me-Jess’ Mom–rather than from Jess.

By: Kathie Krakowski

Kathie Krakowski — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 18:40:11 +0000

I agree…the whole process is weird and strange. I think there are levels of healing. I know I feel better than when everything seemed to be crashing down around us, but then I will see or hear something that stirs up some emotion or other and suddenly it’s like someone ripped off a scab and I hurt all over again. There is also an accompanying sense of dread that it’s not really over yet, that the ringing phone will bring more bad news, and a wondering if this whole situation will ever be over. Or, will this be my life now…thinking progress has been made, that things are getting better when, suddenly, “ha ha, the joke’s on you!”, and it starts all over again. I wonder if that’s how cancer patients feel when they are in remission. Do they have a sense of dread, a waiting for the other shoe to drop? I would imagine there are similarities between the physical healing process and the emotional healing process. Like when people who have had a broken bone that has healed feel some of that old pain when the weather is cold and damp, right? You’re right, it changes you. And, even when you are feeling better, it is still a part of you, somewhere deep…but hopefully, not the larger part of you.

By: jessica

jessica — Mon, 01 Mar 2010 15:40:07 +0000

well, thank you, PJ…and yes, I will be sure to let you know when I see it…I hope I can recognize it…