shapes of grace
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Performance, video
as anthem, blink, body, burning, burning flame, sense, shapes, sun, sway, way
Don’t you dare give up, my dear
you can’t see through all the tears, but I’ll tell you what’s here
a bright burning flame, a strong sense that you’re so alive
and yes, the sun will rise; you’ll do more than survive
So don’t you judge this life by just one hand
for such cruelty can’t last and his anthem won’t stand
you sing your songs, you go on and hope anyway
and remember you’re more, so much more than they say
And there’s no need to fly away
you close your eyes and you let your body sway
and the world won’t blink, for fear it will miss
the way your body makes such shapes of grace
the way your body makes such shapes of grace…
p.s. I would really prefer that I never ever look the way the video chose to freeze me. Just saying.
today.
in Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as brother josh, business, colored pencils, home, Josh, prehistoric birds, rain, rain boots, Shane, today, tomorrow, yellow rain
Today was spent in the business of pilates and baking and peanut butter tasting.
It was waking up from a dream that involved large prehistoric birds, tigers in tree-cages, and a good friend who dropped me off; I felt alone and scared, but upon a closer look I noticed that I was actually home and there was no sign of the birds or the tigers anymore.
Today was fingers all stained from colored pencils cause I’m making a picture again.
It was filling my thirsty car up once again while quietly observing a drug deal to my left. I tried to pretend like I didn’t notice, just in case they minded.
Today was painting my toenails a pretty minty blue and subsequently planning on wearing flip-flops tomorrow so that the world can see this fete on my feet. Ha.
It was running to meet someone in the rain and, sure, being glad that the earth was finally getting watered, but also not minding the fact that I had a reason to wear my yellow rain boots.
Today was playing a show with Shane; singing songs that mean something so good, I think; passing the time but not wasting a second of it, because yes, it’s that precious. It was seeing my family–every one of the original Latshaws and then some–listening to us from among the crowd. And then my brother Josh, telling me that he’s gonna have to remix our rap, cause he’s gotta put some ke$ha all over it.
It was getting home late, heart full and happy and needing to bake just a little more because there’s another party tomorrow. But first there’s church, which leads me to now–this business of sleeping so that I can then get up and get to church.
Because today is now tomorrow.
not a sad song tonight.
in Performance, Thoughts and Feelings, video
as armor, chink, constant companion, heart, home, Jess, little stream, minor chords, new melody, Pinocchio, song
My heart is full today. So full, that you might even say it’s heavy. And so I needed to go. Just go. It’s hard to explain, really. But there’s something about hiking outside that puts a tiny chink in whatever armor is holding in that heavy feeling in my heart. As I walk, I can [...]
oh, man.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as american idioms, brother jonathan, chicken, cut, Delaware, dress rehearsal, Esther, fancy footwork, head, Henry VIII, jonathan, king henry viii, Pat, rehearsal, Shane, Tim Gunn, week
One time I overheard my mom trying to use that old expression, “running around like a chicken with its head cut off.” And I know. It’s not the most poetic of our American idioms. But my mom failed to mention the chicken, and so she simply told someone that she was “running around with HER [...]
a few days’ worth of pics and words.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, Performance, photography
as blur, boi, card, Don, janes, Jase, Jason, purse, Shane, sleep, Summer Molestice, ton, Yep
This weekend was a blur, I think. A beautiful blur, but still. I didn’t get a ton of sleep. I have many pictures here, but none of them are of me sleeping because, right: I didn’t get a ton of sleep. Too bad, because you know how I love to post pics of me sleeping. [...]
you don’t come around here anymore.
in Performance, video
as face, hasn, November, October, song, truth of the matter, way
I wrote this song back in October. Or maybe November. And I was too embarrassed to show it then, because I didn’t want people to know that I wasn’t loved anymore. I was still working really hard at pretending like things were good. My face would hurt from the way I’d arrange my features, thinking [...]
thoughts and a song for you tonight.
in Funny Stuff, MP3, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as bathroom, Fair Hill, God, Guy, hold ups, Jesus, Shane, song, time, uofd, warm weather, way, weather, weather baby, weather reports
I think that I like weather reports very much because, in a way, they are a small glimpse of what my life will look like in the future. And yes, I realize it’s the very near future–and a faulty prediction at that. But, still. At least when the ladies gather round me in the church [...]
My name is Jessica and this is a nice, quiet space that I like to cram with words.
