snapshots.
in Performance, photography, Thoughts and Feelings
as anybody, back, chorus line, foot, Huh, Ironic, paycheck, photographer, return, snapshots, story, talk, thought
Alright, so.
A photographer named Ed Verosky took some pictures of me. He was really nice, actually.
He asked me why I looked so sad, though.
Which finally made me smile.
Ironic, huh?
And I asked him something in return:
“Do you really want to know?” I said.
Most people get intrigued when you say something like that, and Ed was no different in that respect.
So I told him a bit of my story.
He shook his head. He made some appropriate commentary. And he kept snapping pictures.
And then he asked me what makes me happy.
Now.
“Anybody?” he asked.
“Some people, yeah,” I said, smiling at the thought.
So he asked me about them.
And I told him.
And I smiled some more.
And I touched my foot to the back of my head.
Which really has nothing to do with anything.
Except that it’s something I used to do at least 8 times a week with A Chorus Line. Talk about earning your paycheck.
Which is something else that, when I think about it, makes me smile.
A Chorus Line, I mean.
Not necessarily earning a paycheck.
Well, okay, so both.
like/dislike.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as anybody, Bill, deal, dislike, don miller, Huh, idea, large group, person, reading, television, trouble, watching
Recently, I told a friend that I’ve been making a list. Well, two, actually:
- stuff I like
and
- stuff I don’t like
“I tried to remember all of the stuff from the past year or so,” I told her. “And then I tried to remember if I liked it or if I didn’t.”
“Well, did you mention that you didn’t really like being cheated on, lied to, and stolen from, to name a few?” she asked, making both of us laugh. “I think those are kind of givens,” I said, though I probably didn’t need to even say that.
But, I got that idea from reading something Don Miller wrote about, well, making a list of likes and dislikes. Amazing that I got this idea from that, huh? And, interestingly enough, it’s actually a lot more difficult than it seems. So far, my list of likes is a good deal longer than my list of dislikes.
But the idea is that our preferences aren’t really wrong or right. Like, some people like being one-on-one and some people thrive in big groups. Some people like to hang out with others as much as possible and some people like to go on long hikes by themselves. Both are okay; both are good to understand about a person. Especially when that person is yourself. Because then, see, you can learn to say no to things that you know you won’t really like, rather than continually finding yourself in situations where you start to feel resentful because you’re not happy where you are.
Take control. Go where you grow. And I am not saying be selfish and don’t ever think about anybody else. I am saying know yourself. For example: if somebody invites me to a long day of television watching and hot pocket eating with a large group of people–my ex included–I will say no. Because I don’t care for any of that stuff. And now I have a list to prove it. If there are any doubters giving me trouble, I can refer to my list and tell them that I’d rather go on a walk with one or two people. Or sometimes even by myself. And that’s okay.
*but please be aware that I realize there are some things we do not ‘like’ that we have to do. For instance, I cannot simply put ‘paying bills’ on my dislike list and decide to never again pay a bill, right? Right.
how to make a (russian) girl buy something
in Funny Stuff, Thoughts and Feelings
as anybody, country of origin, hand, kiosk, kiosks, Maryland, matter of time, news flash, Russia, salesperson, time, way
So I went to the mall tonight and actually shopped. And shopping involves walking which means navigating around those kiosks that are right smack in the middle of wherever you are trying to go. And just when you think you’ve done it, that you’ve successfully gotten past a kiosk and are that much closer to [...]
bitter;better
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as anybody, beautiful books, direct correlation, extreme situations, God, happenstance, healthy, lot, music, Read, sentimental/inspiration, Somebody, way, wee hours
I’ve been writing a lot of music lately. I don’t know if any of it is really good, but it helps me and doesn’t hurt anybody, so I will keep doing it. Somebody said once that, after experiencing pain, you either get better or you get bitter. I really want to choose the former. And [...]
