First page of the bamboo forrest archive.

I don’t want to forget

Posted by jessica on Nov 19, 2009 with 8 Comments
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It’s weird, I sort of already forgot about this. I mean, I know I haven’t really. And I know it happened and all that, but I’ve barely given it any thought at all. Not until I looked at this picture, actually. And how strange it is to not be going back to some city sometime soon, for a soundcheck at four and the hope of a Whole Foods that is within a walkable distance.

In a book I recently read, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years, Don Miller talks about a guy he knows who keeps a notebook with him and writes down everything that he can remember. All the time. He wants to record his memories because otherwise he’d forget, he says, and I get that. Because although it might not be so bad to forget that time you waited at the DMV for an hour with nothing to do but listen to the sounds of the security guards urging you to please stay in line! and then next! to the person who is unfortunately 50 paces in front of you, it could be sad to forget that time you first met your little niece exactly eleven years ago. And when you walked outside from the birth center to the car that night it looked like the stars had been polished and buffed to the point where God could see his face in them, the newness of that little girl in your life was so radiant.
And I guess that’s why pictures are nice too.
They are memories in colors and stills.
Like, I hardly ever think about Japan. I mean, I do occasionally use the emoji app on my iphone, but that’s about as much mental energy as I give to anything Japanese lately. Call me present minded, I guess.
But I look at this picture and suddenly I cannot deny that I’ve been there.
Walking in a bamboo forrest that dwarfed me.
I remember the way the light was barely lasting, the sun was setting and couldn’t quite reach around the bend in the road anymore.
And no matter what it feels like sometimes, it’s good to remember that there are some things that are true. It’s good to write them down, to take pictures of the love you’ve shared and the places you’ve walked.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve swam with manatees.
But more than anything else, I love and I am loved and I have so many memories that can be given as conclusive evidence to support this theory.
But I’ll still keep writing it down, because I don’t want to forget.

journeying

Posted by jessica on Jul 24, 2009 with No Comments
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Being well is really great. It means that your husband stops with the water intake interrogations. That you are once again allowed to clean your house. That you can hug your nieces and nephews. And oh yeah, that you can go geocaching.

It’s alright, until my brother explained it to me, I didn’t know what it meant either.
Basically, geocaching is a world-wide treasure hunt using a GPS device of some sort to find the hidden cache left by someone who wandered the path before you. Once you find it, you decide whether or not to take it and if you do, you replace it with a treasure that you leave for the next journeyer. And yeah, it’s awesome.
So armed with my brother Jason’s Geocache Iphone app, we went off in search of treasures today. We were a fierce band of travelers composed of me, my sister Jenna, my brother Jase, my mom, and these two young ruffians.
Our first hunt led us to a bamboo forrest.
Where we walked around for a good 20 minutes.
And found nada.
Except for some prickers.
And a desire to say What gives?!?!
So treasureless, we left the bamboo behind and went to a new site.
And found things that we hoped to God were not the treasure.
Things that were far too creepy.
Or far too ridiculously obvious and suburban.
But finally, eureka! Jenna found it in a moment of glorious triumph, causing our spirits to rally.
We decided to take the light stick.
And left an old watch in a magical egg in its stead.
Okay, so maybe it wasn’t exactly proven to be magical, per se, but hey, it was really really shiny, which totally counts for something.
And after we took roll call in the small golden book, leaving our legacy in the network of geocahing,
we noticed that our fearless canines were completely tuckered out.
After some prodding and cajoling, Strider finally stood up to walk back down the hill, but Arwen, at only 11 weeks, could still use some coddling.
So I scooped her up and walked her over the hardest part of the terrain.
And she didn’t mind it in the least.
Finally it was time for all of us to walk again.
And so we walked out of the forrest, light stick in hand, quest for adventure sated.
For the moment, anyway.
The glorious day ended in a beautiful smash of wind and rain, thunder and lightening that swept away the hot air and left a rainbow draped across the sky.
And a Strider draped across my lap. Not to mention the me draped across my mom’s lap.
And one final glimpse of Arwen says it better than I could ever say:
Cause after today, we are all spent.
But in a very very good way.