mishmash.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as admittance, being a man, birthday, cheating men, Dann, dead soldiers, fit, girl, hardship, Harper, having a girl, human spirit, kind, lucky girl, pop, second thought, subway, time, us army, war stuff
A recent conversation between me and one of my new loves, Dann Dunn:
Me: For my first anniversary after…well, you know…
(Dann shakes his head, cause he knows)
Me:…My parents took me to Gettysburg.
…
Me again: And then for my birthday this year, they took me to Harper’s Ferry. You know, more Civil War stuff.
Dann: Hmm…war…dead soldiers…graves…hardship…
Me: Yeah, it kind of fit with my mood at the time…
Dann: So, where are your parents taking you for Christmas–Auschwitz?
What do you say, mom and pop?
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I have been having a few disappointing, dead-end auditions lately. But my sadness never lasts long over these. It’s strange how resilient the human spirit is. I’ll be so bummed, but then I’ll realize: THIS IS NOT THE END OF THE STORY. It’s a feeling, a valid feeling, but my disappointment is not the last word.
Still, I’m about due for a knock-’em-dead-audition, I’d say.
Any day now, folks; any day.
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On the subway today, a guy told me in very thickly accented English that I am beautiful.
Okay, that’s nice…but I’m thinking not so innocent.
“Give me your number,” he said.
Only it sounded more like “Give me your numberrrrrrrrr,” cause of his fancily rolled r’s.
“I already have a man,” I said.
And I do; I have many.
Many brothers.
And a pop.
And so many beautiful friends who are men.
And even a nephew who is darn close to being a man now.
Is already one, if you go by the US Army’s standards.
But my argument turned out to be futile, as this guy with the rolled r’s parried it aside with his own admittance to already having a girl.
Well, now–what a lucky girl she is.
“You should stay with your girl,” I said.
But on second thought, he probably should just be single, since that’s the way he acts, anyway.
Why are some people such dogs?
No, I LOVE dogs. I won’t discredit dogs by comparing cheating men to them.
Why are some people such…people who become their worst selves at times?
Gosh, including me, actually.
Okay, I guess we all need help.
And grace.
But at least we don’t all go around hitting on people on the subway when we have a perfectly fine somebody at home.
But, then again: there but for the grace of God, go I…
Though thankfully, that is not something I struggle with.
I might have 99 problems, but trying to get numbers from people when I already have someone with their own ten digit number is not one of them.
(of course, being single helps with that…)
light the world on fire (for christine).
in Loved Ones, MP3, video
as birthday, candle, colors, dreams, fire, friend christine, glow, God, Happy, happy birthday, heart, hill, lyrics, monsters, rendition, standard, today, ukelele, world on fire
I was gonna do a little rendition of that old standard, Happy Birthday, for my friend Christine today. But then I got to thinking…And decided to just write something else for her.
(It’s the first thing I’ve written on my ukelele)
Lyrics:
Though life’s not quite always what it seems
You still need to paint the world with all your dreams;
Even though the colors change from time to time,
My friend, you stay yourself, you stay sublime
For the monsters, they come out when it grows dark
That’s why you light a candle with your heart;
and to the hungry, we speak words that become bread
we say good things to our friends and they are fed
So light the world on fire, and I’ll spread a blanket on a hill
Where I will watch it glow from now until–
all the world’s ablaze or at least unfazed
By those who tell us not to dream
Thank you, Christine, for continuing to believe in all the good and perfect things that God gives so generously. Thanks for always reminding me of these things. Please never stop. And happy birthday, my friend.
so dance dance like it’s the last last night of your life life.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as Arabian, b boy, b girl, ballerina, ballet training, birthday, birthday party, break, break dance, chance, dressing room, girl, hand, inhibitions, life, nutcracker, party, second act, specifics, training, trouble, variation, weird expression
I think that, given the chance, I would become a B-boy. No, actually a B-girl. I just wanna break dance. I went to a friend’s birthday party tonight and, man, people were dancing. It was fantastic. Most people had helped themselves to the punch, which in turn, helped themselves lose their inhibitions, but I don’t [...]
happy birthday, jenna.
in Loved Ones
as birthday, happy birthday, jenna, nose, sister
I love you much. and I’ve always greatly admired your nose. being your sister=very very lucky, indeed.
oh, it’s late.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as 3am, birthday, Cause, clean clothes, heap, home, idea, joke, kind, lunch, midnight, red velvet, self, sister, sister jenna, suitcase, tomorrow
When you are exiting your home at eleven pm, it might not be a good idea to leave the sheets in the dryer. Because what will probably happen is you will get back at 3am and try to go to bed, only to realize that the sheets are still in the dryer. Shoot. And also–it’s [...]
stairwells aren’t private but they are isolated
in Funny Stuff, Thoughts and Feelings
as beer, birthday, cabin crew, Canada, gingersnaps, God, hackles, humor, man, quick exit, song, stairwell, thoughts/life
Thank God for hackles and the way they raise. Because mine were put to use tonight. At least, they were if I actually have hackles. Or is it just dogs that have hackles? Well, whatever–something told me that a quick exit was in order, be it intuition, common sense, or just the fact that I [...]
some good things have happened in memphis
in Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as B. B. King, birthday, Carl Perkins, country, Elvis, elvis presley, good graces, Jerry Lee Lewis, John Mellencamp, Johnny Cash, johnny cash movie, memphis, Mr. Phillips, Mrs. Presley, music, recording, red hot and blue, Sam, sam phillips, song, studio, theater/tour, U2
This. Was. Just. Amazing. Sun Records, here in downtown Memphis, a mile away from my hotel. And it is responsible for the music that we have today. This is where 18 year old Elvis Presley walked in off the street and spent four dollars to make a record for his mother’s birthday. Or so he [...]
