a list.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as audition, concert, dance, date, edge of my seat, empire state building, half, high maintenance, hippie, idea, julliard school of dance, kind, lincoln center, nuance, play today, rapt, today, way, what the heck, yell
“I like this; I don’t like this!”
Is what I heard the seniors at the Julliard School of Dance yell onstage during their performance at Lincoln Center tonight. The whole concert was stunning. I was rapt and on the edge of my seat, hardly wanting to blink, for fear I would miss some nuance of movement that, upon seeing, could change my life.
But, that statement.
Allow me to make it a little more specific.
I like this:
I am rediscovering the color of my hair. I haven’t colored it since, um…the spring, I think. And, gradually, my roots are just now becoming my hair. And it’s so much less expensive this way. I dig it. For now, anyway. I kind of feel like a hippie, so that’s cool. Although, that’s how you know you’re definitely not a hippie: This girl is so high maintenance that she doesn’t color her hair for a while and then calls herself a hippie! YEAH. RIGHT.
I auditioned for a play today. I’ve never auditioned for a play before. “I have no idea what to do to prepare!” I said to Betsy. “Should I put my hair up? If I do–I’ll look like a dancer trying to be in a play. Who am I kidding, I always look like a dancer, so of course I’m gonna look like a dancer trying to be in a play!”
Bets suggested that I try half up and half down. I went with it. I also wore a dress and some heels. The heels made me feel like if King Kong were around, he’d just as soon scale me as the Empire State Building. The dress made me feel kind of pretty, so at least there was that. It was so strange to not have to sing or even drop into a split to get ready for an audition. All I did was read lines. JUST READ. What the heck is a girl supposed to do with all this…body..and voice, then? Gosh, the audition felt too easy. And I felt too tall.
Watching the Julliard dancers move so beautifully. It made me so grateful to my parents for FORCING me to start dancing when I was eight. Thanks for being such tyrants, mom and pop!
Finding a small glass stone with a pretty angel inside it while digging through my purse. And I have no idea how it got there. But now it’s there and I don’t want it to leave.
A little project I am working on for my parents’ Christmas gifts. I love working up surprises for people who I love. And, well, I think they’re gonna like this a lot.
Reading my brother Jonathan’s text about his 6 mile run today. I could hardly be prouder if I’d done it myself. He’s strong in so many ways already, but now he’s just getting even stronger. I love watching the people in my life become better versions of themselves.
And now for I Don’t Like This:
Cramps. I’m not sure this needs any explanation, really.
Two different strangers asking me for a kiss within four days of each other. Call me old fashioned, but that’s just weird.
Going to Central Casting to submit for SAG work, only to realize I need my passport. The one in Pennsylvania. Shoot. Next week, then.
A guy asking for a date, and telling me to refer to him as “Batman Mike,” cause his name is Mike, but he really likes Batman. Although, that one would have to go in the I Like This AND I Don’t Like This category. Because, I kind of like that it’s so funny and weird–but I definitely would not like to date anyone named Batman Mike.
Okay, this list is in no way comprehensive, but it sums up some recent likes and dislikes just fine.
life in california.
in Loved Ones, there are pictures here, Thoughts and Feelings
as California, dance, degree, game, kind, life, Microbiology, mountain, nice thing, Pacific Ocean, time, time of day, Waking, way
Waking up at 8 am, thinking it’s 11am.
That’s a really nice thing about being out here.
Also, getting to spend time with special people.
Yeah.
That’s another nice thing.
And sleeping right next to this girl at night.
And being thoroughly trounced by her in Just Dance.
Apparently, a dance degree is about as helpful as a degree in Microbiology when it comes to playing that game.
And then there’s the Pacific Ocean.
It’s really something glorious, isn’t it?
Here, we step outside and see it.
It’s the kind of thing that makes one feel small.
Small and significant all at once.
It looks different at night, by the way.
It’s alive like that; changes with the time of day, the seasons.
It looked beautiful tonight, too, on our (what felt like a midnight hike, but it was much earlier than that, actually) walk up the mountain.
Oh, life.
It’s feeling kind right about now.
on tenterhooks.
in Performance, video
as apple, camera, chairs, dance, dance company, dancers, deep breath, Delaware, Guy, Hunter, lighting, live performance, olivia, rehearsal, spring, tech, tenterhooks, tiny digital camera
This is a piece I choreographed for the Delaware Dance Company’s Spring Gala, if you care to watch. Okay, so here’s where I make a ton of disclaimers. Deep breath…and go: This was tech rehearsal and the lighting guy TOTALLY screwed up the lights. I was recording on my tiny digital camera, climbing over chairs [...]
all over town.
in Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as agape, applause, audition, birthright, course, dance, delaware art museum, haste, kind, lad, many moons, ogre, safety pins, something, Spidey, time, today, train, train station, way, zipper
This morning felt like many moons ago. The alarm was very irritatingly buzzing at me at 6:45 am and I hit snooze even though I always tell myself that I will not do that the night before. But then the morning comes too soon and I do it: I hit snooze. It’s a good thing [...]
stream of consciousness.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as american philosophical association, Arrows, blister, blister on my finger, brother and sister, computer, dance, dance dance revolution, dancing, dancing game, famous last words, gotta, ping pong, placement, revolution, sister, stream, stream of consciousness, wii, word dance
I just played a new Wii dancing game with my brother and sister. It got really hot in that living room with the three of us busting a move together. So hot that, eventually, I ended up in my shirt and underwear. Gotta love family. And super modest underwear. But anyway, the game was really [...]
medicine for the soul. ~Inscription over the door of the Library at Thebes
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as academic class, Auto, balanchine, ballerinas, ballet training, body, dance, dance history, door, Draft, everything, exclamation point, flat surface, kind, Line, reading, russian ballet, school professor, Thebes, University, way, zelda fitzgerald
There was one class, especially, that I loved at the University of Arts. Dance History. It was the most difficult academic class that a dancer could take. Everybody knew the buzz around the school: Professor Ninotchka Bennahum was hard on her students. And she was hard on us, true. Oh, but it was the kind [...]
upon my recommendation.
in Funny Stuff, photography, Thoughts and Feelings
as America, band, band of thieves, blah, blog, dance, dance experience, google, google image, google images, merry makers, Shane, something, South Africa, university of pretoria
So, this is Shane. If you recall, he is in a band with me. We call ourselves the paper janes. We call ourselves this because it is our name. And in this band we play music. We deliberated over different kinds of bands–say, a band of thieves or a band of merry makers, but thought that [...]
these latter days.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as anything, cool cats, dance, friend james, God, James, latter days, open mic, rap, rhine song, Shane, toll, world
Tonight, Shane and I went to the World Cafe’s open mic and played a couple of songs. It was fun. A blast, really. And oh, we might have met a few cool cats who want to produce our rap. Yes, our rap, which was one of the two songs we played. They sounded very excited, [...]
