I am not a millionaire, but I did do an interview at Z100 and that’s something, I guess.
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Here’s some irony: Today, I get a facebook message from someone, telling me that he’s glad I’m “a millionaire now.”
And so, let me tell you what this millionaire went and did. Tried to buy one of those packs of men’s undershirts at Modell’s because I forgot a shirt to wear to class tonight.
And my card was denied.
Yep, just rolling in it.
I, too, am so glad that I am finally a millionaire.
I am probably the only millionaire on the planet who cannot afford something that costs $6.99.
And before you freak out (hi, mom! hi, pop!)–don’t worry. I went to my bank and moved some money from my savings account into my regular account and so now I can once again afford men’s beater shirts. WHO WANTS TO BE A MILLIONAIRE NOW?!
Oh, I also did an interview and played some songs on one of Z100′s podcasts, with TJ, who co-hosts with Elvis Duran for the morning show. If you wanna hear it, you can go HERE. If you wanna see what TJ and I look like when we stand next to each other under a big, neon sign that says Z100, you can go here:
And here are some random thoughts that are all vying for my attention right now: I am in love with my friends. But not, you know, in love in love. But definitely in love. My mom just texted me four little emojis at 1:24 am. A thumbs up, a smiley face, a red balloon (one of my favorite emojis, hands down), and a chinese character that I certainly don’t understand and would also bet every one of my MILLION DOLLARS that she doesn’t understand, either. I like making eye contact with people–is that strange? When I used to work at a coffee shop, it was my goal to make eye contact with every person I waited on–you know, have a real human connection. This is probably why so many strange people end up talking to me, though, I am guessing. I am hungry almost all the time, lately. My yoga teacher went 40 minutes over in class tonight. This is a gift, unless you are starving and exhausted. Guess what I was? Yep. Starving and exhausted. I wanted to take the gift back.
And buy dinner with the money I got for it.
I am also wearing my fair share of leg warmers recently. The dream of the nineties might very well be alive in Portland (as they say in Portlandia. Which is an awesome and hilarious show. Even I know this and I hardly ever watch the television, is the thing), but the dream of the eighties is alive right here in New York City.
Just look at my legs and how warm they are lately.
a show and some thoughts and some socks, too. dry ones.
in Performance, there are pictures here, Thoughts and Feelings
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I had a show last night. It was dreamy. Many people were packed into the small bar and they were listening. A listening crowd is a precious, precious gift; one that I don’t take lightly.
The sound man snapped at me while sound checking. Confession: whenever someone yells at me, I instantly feel a). five years old again, b). deeply hurt, and also c). kind of mad. But, I simply thanked him for his work and smiled.
Like this, I guess.
One guy came up to me and told me that I look “much taller!”
“Taller than…what?” I asked. “Than on facebook,” he said, “And thinner, too,” he added.
Which doesn’t say much for my pictures on facebook, I guess.
There is not much else I’d rather be doing than singing my songs for people. And every time I get to do this, I am reminded of this fact once again.
I also sometimes get the irrational fear that, now that people are actually noticing, What if I never write another song again?! Sort of like the other day when I was hand washing my delicates (which is an even more embarrassing word than just plain underwear, I think; and don’t even get me started on panties!), and the socks, in particular were taking a very long time to dry (I guess we say delicates because socks aren’t considered underwear, right?). I literally entertained the thought that my socks may just never ever dry. Like, AT ALL.
But guess what? My socks are now dry. Therefore, since that irrational fear did not materialize, I can also trust that I will continue to write songs.
Yes, I will write songs while wearing dry socks and life will be good.
Because, really, does it get any better than that?
the week in pictures.
in Loved Ones, there are pictures here, Thoughts and Feelings
as bob, Buoyant, few words, friend kevin, friend nick, friendships, gift, girl, half, heart, Jess, life, little apple, lucky girl, mittens, new friend, nothing, puppy, sign, something, Speaking, tonight, water, year
And a few words, too, I guess. Today, I marveled at life. I’m feeling all whole and full inside lately. Buoyant, even. Like a little apple that continues to happily bob along in the water. It’s really good. Life is really good. And lately, I’ve been feeling it. “Nothing cataclysmically amazing has happened,” I told [...]
cat-bird.
in Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as blond hair, brooklyn oh, Cat-bird, christmas gift list, cinderella, day in my life, dressing room, everything, favorite shop, gift, homemade cards, pair, room downstairs, shop, store, time, today, unicorn, vintage store, way, Write
I took myself out tonight. Put a dress on and everything. By everything, I suppose I mean boots and a jacket, too. I don’t know, really. It just felt right to add the word everything. Anyway, I ended up in Brooklyn. Oh, who am I kidding–I knew I would end up there. See, it’s just [...]
all full up tonight.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
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All full up. Oh, it’s terrible English, I know–and I cannot remember where I first heard this phrase–but it keeps running through my mind tonight. I have this sense of contentment, of wellness, that feels even bigger than my body, if that makes sense. Like my fingers only go so far when I reach; but, [...]
little dress, little dream.
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So, a tiny dream of mine just came true. Albeit, it is not the noblest of dreams. Not even close. But a dream is a dream no matter how small. Or something like that. Anyway. I just came across an Amazon gift card that had kindly been given to me by my pop’s dear cousin, [...]
turns out nyc does just fine on the 4th.
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I have to admit: this holiday didn’t suck. It didn’t suck at all, in fact. Oh, non-sucking holidays are a gift. A GIFT, I tell you. And I have learned to appreciate them as such. And as my friend and (once again! yay!) apartment-mate Betsy just said: “You have had a very New York few [...]
on working.
in Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
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Doing this taping of the broadway warm-up inspires me to dance. Which is a good thing, cause that’s what I’ve been doing all day. And am still doing. But I’m not in this shot, so I’m blogging instead. But I guess the fact that I’m blogging is kind of obvious. There is a very nice [...]
good finds.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as anne of green gables, apartment, boulder, central park, dancer, elevator, everything, few days, floral pattern, gift, good, innocence, jersey shore, saleslady, sort, store, today, vintage store, visit, way, while
I found Central Park today. But, Jessica, you might be thinking, Isn’t Central Park, like, huge? And everywhere? Isn’t that like telling someone you found the ocean–and you live on the Jersey Shore? Well, yes, sort of. And I’d appreciate a little less attitude, if you don’t mind. The thing is, I am not so [...]
12 steps; I like to walk, anyway.
in Funny Stuff, I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
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Just a little while after my marriage ended, I did something stupid. Well, I probably did more than just one stupid thing, but what I am referring to now is the time I locked my keys in my car. I felt dumb and, on top of that, I had to ask for help from a [...]
