a portrait and a conversation.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, there are pictures here
as dogs, Guy, hahaha, hat, home, ish, Jess, joy, kind, kisses, late night, party, party hat, pop, portrait, second
I get home pretty late these days.
Usually so late that even the dogs are asleep by the time I get back.
Which makes me sad.
So tonight I woke Strider up. I brought him upstairs and told him I’d get him a treat. Then I put a party hat on him–well, on each of us–and we posed for a picture:
He gave me kisses and snuggled with me for a second. But see, I still hadn’t given him his treat yet, and he knew it. Sometimes it’s hard for me to tell if a guy is being kind to me because he wants something from me, or simply because he’s truly kind.
But I think I’ve been around Strider long enough to know that he’s one who truly loves me.
And treats.
It’s not mutually exclusive for him, I think.
And then I got him the promised treat, which made him about one hundred and fifty pounds of pure, late night joy.
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Oh, and this conversation between my pop and I recently occurred:
Pop: You’ll never be fat, Jess.
Me: Okay.
Pop: Well, when you get pregnant, you’ll be fat-ish, but then you’ll probably lose it…
Me: Um…thanks?
Hahaha fat-ish. I’m not sure what, exactly, that looks like, but at least my pop is confident that I’ll probably lose it.
Probably!
fancy-schmancy.
in Funny Stuff
as business, business card, conferences, fancy schmancy, Guy, how to pick up girls, kind, love, No--like, number, own business, phone, phone number, professional, reminder, stop, subway, trash, while
“I think I got hit on by…like, a professional or something.”
“What?” Leao asked. “What do you mean, a professional?”
“Well, he had a fancy card.”
“A business card?”
“No–like, a social card, I think. It was a card with just the guy’s first name and his phone number on it.”
“Well, what happened?”
And so that’s when I explained to Leao that this guy was sitting next to me on the subway, asking me questions. What’s my name, what do I do, where am I from–that kind of stuff. Then I got to my stop (luckily) and the guy handed me this professional looking card and told me to call him sometime.
So I showed Leao the card.
“I don’t want your trash,” he told me. “You keep…” I watched as he read the name on it, “Sam’s card, if you want.”
“I don’t want to keep his card,” I said, laughing.
“Oh, you probably got hit on by a pick-up artist,” Leao said casually, like we all talk about pick-up artists all day long.
“A pick-up artist?” I asked.
And that’s when I learned that there are conferences for guys. For them to become pick-up artists. Seriously. These guys pay money and they learn from “the experts” how to pick up girls.
“And you know this because you’ve been to one, Leao?” I asked.
“I haven’t been to one!” he said. “I’ve been to seven.”
And then we laughed again.
Anyway, this stuff was just hilarious to me. And pitiful. And so far from what love is about, I think. And getting handed a card by someone who may or may not be a professional pick-up artist (artist! ha!) is a first for me.
But it does remind me that I really should get my own business card. That’s something I’ve been meaning to do for a while. So thanks, Sam, for the reminder, I guess.
not the best, but it doesn’t even matter, really.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as anything, beat, blue eyed girl, body, BOOM, boom boom boom, bum, change, class, corner, crazy things, dancer, dreams, drummers, girl, Guy, half, heart, hour and a half, kind, love, mea, person, poem, presence, Read, samba, Shakespeare, Shakespeare--maybe, shy, something, tra, truth, wonderful things, wonderland, world
I will say it: I am not the best dancer in the world. Truth is, I am not the best anything in the world. But that doesn’t really matter. Because who is? Not being The Best In The World is peripheral compared to this: What is it that you love? And I mean real love. [...]
on tenterhooks.
in Performance, video
as apple, camera, chairs, dance, dance company, dancers, deep breath, Delaware, Guy, Hunter, lighting, live performance, olivia, rehearsal, spring, tech, tenterhooks, tiny digital camera
This is a piece I choreographed for the Delaware Dance Company’s Spring Gala, if you care to watch. Okay, so here’s where I make a ton of disclaimers. Deep breath…and go: This was tech rehearsal and the lighting guy TOTALLY screwed up the lights. I was recording on my tiny digital camera, climbing over chairs [...]
look, I’m smiling.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as apparent reason, ballet dancer, bed bath, blue eyes, cash register, classical dance, course, funny look, Guy, heart, house, joy, kindness, little heart, moment, moments of joy, reason, register, road, today
I keep finding myself smiling lately. For no apparent reason. Sure, I can blame it on Ted, the super friendly former ballet-dancer-now-turned-theater-dancer I met at Lululemon today. We commiserated with each other over how difficult tap is after you’ve been studying classical dance. He is tall and skinny like me. Except he has bright blue [...]
12 steps; I like to walk, anyway.
in Funny Stuff, I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as 12 steps, calling, car, couple, dress up clothes, driveway, everything, existence, fabulous car, fact, Fast, feelings, gas gauge, ghetto, gift, Guy, guy friends, help, home, house, jelly fish, jellyfish, lock picking techniques, marriage, nice guy, pain, situation, snow, something, song, sort, step in the right direction, stupid thing, thing, time, today, way
Just a little while after my marriage ended, I did something stupid. Well, I probably did more than just one stupid thing, but what I am referring to now is the time I locked my keys in my car. I felt dumb and, on top of that, I had to ask for help from a [...]
fly.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, photography
as Auto, bit, blue sky, boring life, corner, door, Draft, fly, Guy, hummingbird, kitchen, life, little guy, right, sky, wonder
It’s not boring. Life, I mean; it really never is. Not when you walk into your kitchen to find this little guy. And he thinks he’s in a corner. Just in a corner. Like, end-of-story, in a corner. But what he doesn’t yet realize is that the door is right there, too. And that I’m [...]
lots.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as beeline, FRUIT, fruit snack, fruit snacks, good manners, Guy, Jess, Jessica, just, kind, music, MY TOE, Ollie, SNACK, thingies, way
Every moment was mapped out for me between the hours of 2:30 and 9:00 tonight. And it was kind of nice, because everything that I was doing involved either people, music, or dance, and I happen to be in love with all three of those. And it was kind of tiring. And it made me [...]
back here.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as chocolate tea, Christian, fact, Guy, kind, long fingernails, orange salsa, person, pizza, pizza shop, Rosa, taste buds, time
I am, I believe, a picky person. And I have often been told that I am missing out because of this. But when I ask what it is that I am missing out on, I am given a long list of things that I have tried and would rather not waste my precious time or [...]
thoughts and a song for you tonight.
in Funny Stuff, MP3, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as bathroom, Fair Hill, God, Guy, hold ups, Jesus, Shane, song, time, uofd, warm weather, way, weather, weather baby, weather reports
I think that I like weather reports very much because, in a way, they are a small glimpse of what my life will look like in the future. And yes, I realize it’s the very near future–and a faulty prediction at that. But, still. At least when the ladies gather round me in the church [...]
