how it happened that we played on the subway that day and you all know about it now.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as And--before, anything, blah blah, case, case in point, commute, drummer, exposition, finger positions, firewood, glamour, grocery, grocery shopping, gym, hair, hipster, holes, jamming, kind, life, Live, part, point, seat, series, someone, subway, sweat, sweat pants, sweatpants, time, tirade, train, tuesday evening, uke, ukulele, video, world, youtube, youtube video
The next time you decide to wear your hair in pigtails, think long and hard about it. Because, see, you might just become part of a little video that gets to see more of the world than you do.
I’m actually not upset about the pigtails, I just think it’s a little funny. And not so glamorous. But life is not about being glamorous, is it? If that were the case, I should really stop wearing my favorite sweat pants to the gym. The ones with the holes. In the seat of the pants, that is. But, lucky for me, the point of life is not glamour, so LIVE ON, dear sweatpants, LIVE ON!
But, someone asked me to tell about the youtube video. Give some exposition. Like, how it happened to be that me and the fierce drummer just started jamming on the subway on a regular Tuesday evening on the A train (as if there is anything regular about a Tuesday evening on the A train!). So, here goes.
I had come from a series of classes and grocery shopping (life is not about glamour; case in point). I had my uke strapped to my back because I like to use the commute on the train to practice, if I can. You know, make the most of the 35 minutes, better myself and blah blah blah. And–before you go into a tirade about how PEOPLE JUST WANNA BE LEFT ALONE ON THE SUBWAY, SO JUST TAKE YOUR UKULELE AND USE IT TO BUILD A FIRE BECAUSE YOU’RE A HIPSTER AND SO YOU SURELY CANNOT AFFORD HEAT!–let me explain. I practice so quietly. Barely strumming at all–more just going over finger positions and picking, that kind of stuff.
In fact, yesterday I was doing just that, when I suddenly looked at the guy next to me and asked, “Does this bother you at all?” He looked irritated by having to strain to hear my voice over whatever was coming from his headphones, and, once he did finally hear me, he said ‘no’ in such an are-you-an-idiot? kind of tone, that you’d think I’d asked him if he’d like to eat one of the rats that live in the tunnels for dinner tonight.
I didn’t ask him that till later, after I was finished practicing. Duh.
Anyway, my uke was strapped to my back while waiting for the train at 59th. Fierce drummer and his friends walk up to me. “What’s that you got?” the drummer asks me. “A ukulele,” I say. “It’s not a cello?” someone else asks.
…
“It’s not a cello,” and I leave it at that.
“Why don’t you give me your number?” the drummer asks me.
“So we can jam?” I ask.
“…Among other things,” he answers.
Which is when I explain that he can give me his number, if he’d like, but I don’t regularly give my number out. He scrambles to find a pen. The A train shows up. I move to leave. He convinces his friends to jump onto my train with me, and then we all sit down. “Are you good?” the drummer asks me.
Which is usually when I don’t quite know what to say. And honestly, I’ve only been playing the uke for a few months–I’m not that good. I’m pretty good at the piano; pretty okay, I mean, but not really good at the uke. Thus, the practicing during my commute, see?
Another guy asks me, “You gonna sing some (which is when he makes yodeling noises–and I am not gonna attempt to spell yodeling noises. Not at 2:15 in the morning, anyway)?”
“No,” I say. “I’ll sing something better.”
So, then, I don’t even remember quite how it happens, but next thing I know, the drummer has started a beat–he wants something in 6, but we compromise on 4–and I am playing Ain’t My Friend.
Matt, who I didn’t know then, but have since gotten to know some, has taken out his phonecam and is recording it all. I start to sing. I start to rap. The guy in the SOX hat to my left starts to smile. The drummer’s friend starts to tell everyone what is happening; how we are strangers and it’s truly a serendipitous moment that we’re all experiencing.
And the magical part is that, well, we all seem to truly be in the same place. This place filled with music. Either listening to it or making it–or both–we’re here. Sharing one space. Together. What a lovely word: together.
Anyway, the rest is, as they say, history.
I am extremely SHOCKED over how that clip has found it’s way into so many different places. When Matt told me he was gonna put it on youtube and made sure to get my first and last name so he could tag me, I thought, Cool, maybe my parents will like to see it.
And they do; my parents sure do like to see it.
I just didn’t think so many other parents would like to see it, too.
I am grateful. It was special. It involved every last person that was there; not any one of us could have made that happen alone.
Like I said, together.
wind and love.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, there are pictures here, Thoughts and Feelings
as fibers, finding, forehead, God, Granite, granite run mall, hair, hurricane, industrial strength, kind, love, mall, Pigs, run, taste, three little pigs, two dollars, whole lot, wind blows
The Granite Run Mall may not seem like it has a whole lot.
But then you find what’s called The Hurricane Simulator.
And your friend says she really wants to do it.
And it only costs two dollars.
And you only live once.
Or so they say.
So you get into a tiny booth.
And the wind blows and blows and you start to understand what it is that the Three Little Pigs must have felt.
And your hair is whipping you in the forehead.
And you’re laughing because–who does that?
Who pays two dollars to stand in a tiny booth and get blown on by some kind of industrial strength fan?
These people do, that’s who.
And another thing.
I got a very comfy shirt recently.
It has a message I hesitated over.
I wasn’t sure if it sounded a little too sad for my taste.
I wasn’t sure if it was what I wanted to proclaim from the fibers of my comfy shirt, you know.
But then I decided that, sad or not, it’s kind of true.
Not in every aspect; no, not at all.
But, in one sense, at least, love is hard to find.
However, I am gonna have to find another shirt, too.
And it will balance out that one.
And it will say that love is worth finding.
Because both are true.
And thank God for that.
happiness is a decision. maybe. yes, definitely maybe.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as boots, cheers, decision, denim jacket, everything, fox, foxes, good, hair, happiness, happy things, jokester, March, saran, saran wrap, Saturdays, socks, something, way
I have just decided to be happy. Anyway. Like, despite the times that would make me feel unhappy. I mean, I’d rather not wait around for everything to line up before I can be like, high-five, world! You and I should be friends. We’re both tall and we both like to dance–what else do you [...]
the open spot.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as ace of spades, beautiful people, bruise, christian book stores, color, empty hotel rooms, entirety, feelings, Felt, freedom, good, hair, headsho, headshot, headshots, kind, middle man, perfect fit, pretenses, prisoner, progress, resolution, sad place, season, sidelines, sort, spot, sun, tension, terrible thing, way
This is a fact, without commentary: I don’t miss him. That is a good thing, a very beautiful and good thing. Because he is not here. He left before I knew to look for him; he left but pretended to stay. It was a trick and in the end, I think we were all tricked, [...]
red like my hair and like that color I love.
in Funny Stuff, photography, Thoughts and Feelings
as bald jess, color, dayafter, dr suess, good ole days, hair, Jess, kind, Ronald McDonald, thanks mom, thing, today
I woke up today not really knowing that this was going to happen. The whole I-sort-of-have-red-hair-now thing. See, I went to the salon with the idea of trying to make them match my roots. I do like the blonde hair, but the maintenance! That color is demanding, what with the roots being all exhibitionists, starting [...]
jo march and me.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as Christian Bale, Friedrich, hair, home, ink stains, jrr tolkien, life, lovely girls, March, proper spelling, purple shadows, Santa Fe, something
Today I wore my hair in two braids. Okay, so I could honestly say that sentence every day since Wednesday of this week. It’s just that I’ve not been able to braid my hair for so long now, that it was quite exciting once I realized I’ve achieved braiding length. Exciting enough to last five [...]
i’ll be in your eighties cover band, sure.
in Funny Stuff, photography
as bathroom, belly, curling iron, fairy, flock of seagulls, hair, hairspray, nice, reunion tour, second cousin, time, way, wedding singer
Some mornings are more glorious than others. They all start the same way, mostly. I generally get so hungry that I am reduced to opening my eyes. Nice and slow. Maybe even one at a time. But about being hungry–every morning I wake up to a belly that acts like I’ve never put anything in [...]
not disney world, but not bad either. well, most of the time.
in Funny Stuff, I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as brother jason, Christian, Disney, God, hair, Jason, Johnny Cash, kid, life, neighborhood children, pots and pans, Shane, something, Thunder Mountain, vineyard churches
I love people. Find them fascinating, really. And this weekend I was among about 700 of them altogether. My friend Christian organizes an annual youth conference for the association of Vineyard churches here on the east coast and asked me to tag along this time. Even sing a few songs, which was so very fun [...]
mamma actually didn’t say there’d be days like this.
in Funny Stuff, Thoughts and Feelings
as april fool, butter, cat, day, fools joke, hair, kind, obscure disease, peanut butter and jelly, peanut butter and jelly sandwich, true hippie, Vietnam
It’s one of those days. You know, the kind when you’re absolutely positive the cat eats the butter–you saw him doing it the other day, in fact–and yet, you now give in to a kind of laziness-induced-denial as you butter your toast with the exact same butter that you are now telling yourself has probably [...]



