no small people.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as apology, bump, course, eight inches, five feet, idea, iphone, kind, naked eye, out of sight, painful reminder, person, reminder, sight, subway, uke, ukulele, vantage, vantage point
Lately, people have told me, “Please! Don’t forget the little people!”
Which makes no sense to me.
Unless, of course, they are literally talking about people who are littler than me. Which is quite possible, as I am on the taller side of the spectrum. So, perhaps if a person is so small that I simply cannot even see them from my five feet eight inches high vantage point–well then, perhaps it is possible I could forget them.
You know, out of sight out of mind.
Maybe, since they are so microscopic, these little people who I cannot even see with the naked eye–well, maybe I should arm them with pins. Therefore, if I forget them, as people keep warning me against, then they could prick my feet as a reminder. A painful reminder, albeit, but a reminder nonetheless.
But little people.
There is no such thing. There are people with small minds, I suppose. People with hearts that grow small because they forget to nurture them; forget to put them in growing and spacious places, fill them with hope and peace and compassion and humor.
But even those people are somewhat unforgettable. As they tend to be the ones who I accidentally bump with my new and slightly bigger ukulele on the train and then get yelled at like I had just run over both their feet with a hummer or something. Rather than bump them with an instrument that weighs about 8 pounds soaking wet.
Not that I have ever or plan to get my uke soaking wet. I think that would be a terrible idea, actually. I once got my iphone soaking wet. Didn’t work out so well for either me or the iphone. Oh, but back to the uke and the lady.
My bad.
I really do need to watch that thing.
Especially on a crowded subway.
Still, kind of takes the joy out of an apology when the offended party yells at you, rolls their eyes, and turns their back to you–all before you can get out the words, “I am sorry.” And then it’s just not the same, saying it to a rigid back, is the thing. But it’ll do. It has to sometimes.
Anyway, have you ever heard that saying in theater that goes: “There are no small roles, just small actors.” ?
I think that applies to life in general. There are no small people. Sometimes we box ourselves in and make our lives feel small cause we think small and act small and all that; but we’re all big. Infinite. Eternal. Important.
Unforgettable, really.
And that’s that.
on the television and what I think and how I accidentally almost stole my cabbie’s identity today.
in Funny Stuff, I Lift My Eyes Up, Performance
as best compliments, bridge, cabbie, choruses, Eat, fare, fox studios, God, idea, mc hammer, onset, phone, second verse, sense of direction, song, sound of the rain, television, today, Touch, ukulele, vampire, Vampires, verse
Take it in. Breathe. Eat. Sleep. These are phrases–no, commands!–that I am hearing an awful lot of recently. And I am trying; really, I am. Would you like to know what, exactly, I was ‘taking in’ while I was playing and singing on the tv this morning? Why the heck did I write such a [...]
a list.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as audition, concert, dance, date, edge of my seat, empire state building, half, high maintenance, hippie, idea, julliard school of dance, kind, lincoln center, nuance, play today, rapt, today, way, what the heck, yell
“I like this; I don’t like this!” Is what I heard the seniors at the Julliard School of Dance yell onstage during their performance at Lincoln Center tonight. The whole concert was stunning. I was rapt and on the edge of my seat, hardly wanting to blink, for fear I would miss some nuance of [...]
strange (and wonderful) as fiction.
in Funny Stuff, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as advil, advil pm, boom box, business, Chuckie, everything, feeling the same way, girl, idea, kind, open mic, own pizza, poker face, stage, story, therapy session, trombonist, way
I really wonder where to start. I remember feeling the same way at my first therapy session. Luckily for me, there was this one glaring, um, situation that led me–no, more like paraded me! With banners and balloons and countless advil pm’s later!–into my therapist’s office, so I had an idea of where to start, but still. [...]
vignette.
in Uncategorized
as classier, date, deposit, Excuse, gaze, hard time, idea, leather stitching, mom, packing tape, purse, random things, store, stranger, strap, tape, vignette, vintage store
So I have this purse. Yeah, this one. And it’s very old. It’s falling-apart-old. It was old when I got it in a vintage store in LA. The strap has already broken off, so I replaced it with a strap from another purse that I love. But that doesn’t help the fact that the leather [...]
live and let live.
in MP3, Performance, Thoughts and Feelings
as cloudy moon, computer, crowded room, darn, description, emo, gosh, hazy moon, idea, iphone, moon, sensitive artist, shenandoah, shenandoah river, song, sound quality, summer wine, Target, today, two rivers
I wrote a song the other night after wandering outside to get away from a crowded room, and while staring up at a cloudy moon. Oh my gosh, does it get any more “I am a sensitive artist” than that? I am ridiculous. I also like to take trips to Target. And play solitaire on [...]
(it’s not) the end of the story.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as being a father, blog, dark tunnel, Fame, father, father abraham had many sons, flesh, having a baby, hello darkness my old friend, idea, pain, peeing, sacrifice, son god, song, stick, story, tag, tantrums, way
Today I’ve been thinking about Abraham. You know, of ‘Father Abraham had many sons…’ fame. That song is interesting because I bet he never ever thought there’d be a song naming him as a father, much less a father of many sons. Cause see, his wife was barren for a very long time. I mean, [...]
Better. Hope. Here.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as better hope, confessions, current state, fates, gerbil wheel, gerbils, hamster, hamster wheel, heartbreak, idea, life, love, person, rhetorical question, self, state, talent, way, wheel
“I think I’m doing better,” I said quietly to my therapist this morning. Such confessions are better whispered, I think, so as not to tempt the fates. Well, I’d think that if I believed in the fates, I mean. But I am cautiously feeling like ‘better’ is a suitable way to describe my current state [...]
like/dislike.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as anybody, Bill, deal, dislike, don miller, Huh, idea, large group, person, reading, television, trouble, watching
Recently, I told a friend that I’ve been making a list. Well, two, actually: stuff I like and stuff I don’t like “I tried to remember all of the stuff from the past year or so,” I told her. “And then I tried to remember if I liked it or if I didn’t.” “Well, did [...]
