the lady of shalott, remix, etc.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, MP3, Thoughts and Feelings
as american neighbors, boots, chai, compliment, everything, footwear, Foreign, gosh, immigration laws, John Legend, laughter, life, mirth, ordinary people, remix, Somebody, studio, time, way
Jonah and I had some fun in the studio with this one. That boy’s genius, I must say.
And what else?
Somebody at the gym a). first asked me what my boots were (I answered “boots,” believe it or not), b). then told me they are weird, and c). finished his commentary on my boots by telling me they look foreign.
Foreign.
Like he’s not only concerned about our immigration laws concerning our North American neighbors, but is also concerned about migrating footwear.
Now, an actually appropriate question could have been to ask why I was wearing boots at the gym in the first place. But why would anyone do that? Asking somewhat normal questions is just so predictable.
Anyway, I don’t think he meant it this way, but I totally took him calling my boots foreign as a compliment.
Tonight, I met a friend for chai. We talked for a long time; our conversation lasted way longer than the chai. And at one point she said, ‘It’s just that everything is so different than I ever planned it…”
I told her that’s life.
Oh gosh, that makes me sound like I’m a little jaded, a little bitter, a little over it. But I’m not. I mean, I said it with laughter in my voice. The kind of laughter that people from another generation might even call mirth.
Because, see, I don’t believe that’s an entirely bad thing at all–life being different than we planned. John Legend says it so well when he calls us ordinary people. We don’t see so well. Even on our smartest days–the ones when we remember to call our friend on his birthday and pay our bills on time–we don’t have all the information. Therefore, our plans aren’t always the best.
We trust that someone else has better plans. We trust that those plans will happen. We do what we can with what we can, and we trust all along that, as someone said: “It’ll all be okay in the end; so if it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”
some of my thoughts out loud.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, photography, Thoughts and Feelings
as baking bread, dance class, dining room, drama, end result, everything, girlfriend, laughter, life, math, normalcy, paragraphs, percent, questions and answers, result, return to normalcy, show, situational, time, tv show, unpleasantness, yoga
I am thinking about yoga in the morning. I don’t love getting up for it, but I love how I feel at the end of it. There are probably a lot of situations in life similar to this. Situations in which the end result justifies the unpleasantness it took to get there.
I am thinking about a conversation I had recently. Man, it’s shocking how we can so easily get used to things. This is strange and wonderful; sad and resilient. In this conversation, I said that it was better that we are not together. I said this. There was a time when I never thought I would have said such a thing. But now I say it confidently. And in the same breath I asked him how he and his girlfriend is. Nope. I actually asked him how they are. Because, see, I might be terrible in math, but I am not so very awful in English to ask two people how they is. So right, I asked him how they are. And it’s normal. This is normal. What a life we live and it’s not a tv show that you can just turn off the drama and return to normalcy; no, all of it is real and, though it feels just situational, these situations are it. Like, it, it. They are the paragraphs that fill up the pages and, eventually, what you’ve got here is a book. And if you want to know what the book is about, then you go back to those paragraphs and you piece it all together and you find out what you wanted, because it is probably what you got. Not all of the time, but most of the time, I think (though I do not know everything or probably even one full percent of everything). But maybe it is like how when I was first learning to turn in dance class. The teacher told me to spot where I wanted to end up, because wherever I fixed my eyes, I would eventually end up there. So, I better make sure to fix my eyes on a place that is good–cause that’s where I want to be.
I am thinking about how much I have been baking bread recently. And how very Italian I feel as I proudly slice the loaves of bread and dole them out to my family. All one hundred (or so, give or take a few) of us, crowding the dining room with the sounds of eating and laughter and questions and answers. And I am happy to have made them something they like to eat and I am happy to be useful. Yes, so happy to be useful. See?
Useful.
And I am thinking about this quote from Story People:
There are things you do because they feel right & they may make no sense & they may make no money & it may be the real reason we are here: to love each other & to eat each other’s cooking & say it was good.
(i’m not your)broadway baby.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as alliteration, broadway baby, broadway tour, change, cliche, comic, half, house, Jim Gaffigan, laughter, pause, phrase, phrase cards, remark, song, way, yeah
He used to call me his broadway baby and I didn’t like the way that sounded. Because the alliteration annoyed me and also, I was only doing a Broadway tour, mind you, and I didn’t want to pretend otherwise. He wrote me a half of a song once. Half of a song. That about sums [...]
oh, facebook.
in Funny Stuff, Thoughts and Feelings
as Auto, baseball, beautiful things, business, christianity, click, cow, deep breath, Draft, facebook, family, family business, flair, google, hand, laughter, left hand side, page, phenomena, quote, rare occurrence, side, sort, way
I don’t understand what Facebook has been up to lately. Except that I happened to notice that on my page I suddenly had 51 different pages or groups or whatever they call themselves that I now apparently “like.” And now, I can tell you in all honestly that I have never gone through 51 of [...]
peace
in Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as cat, drew, family, friends, Jason Robert Brown, laughter, nieces and nephews, orange cat, Peace, romance, sentimental/inspiration, soft tones, Voice, whole lot of things, word
Drew. Such a small word for such a big heart. He’s a lifeline to me. A mirror that reflects me in a way that is far too generous. He’s not close right now, but he is, he is. He’s right here, safe in my thoughts, causing me to smile for a reason that to all [...]
