a date! and a song!
in Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings, video
as baby bunny, Charis, day, drew, Esther, hugs not drugs, Jason, Larry, life, need of prayer, Ollie, slip and slides, song, time, tonight, vietnamese food, Xerxes
My life is rich.
I mean, look at him.
We went on a date tonight. I agreed to drive since he’s underage and all and when I picked him up he had a lovely yellow sparkly card for me. Yellow. Of course. And inside the card, he thanked me for taking him on a date and told me that he loves me.
Like I said, my life is rich.
He also informed me that he wanted to get me flowers, but unfortunately ran out of time. Understandable. He had a very busy day of slip and slides and play-making, from what I heard over dinner tonight. And really, it’s the thought that counts. Well, at least in this case, anyway.
We went to Ollie’s favorite restaurant and had some amazing Vietnamese food. And then had some ice cream at Friendly’s, which is always perfect, if you ask me. We also saw a baby bunny eating some grass outside and how hilarious this sentence would be if I swopped out eating for smoking.
But hugs, not drugs, baby bunny!
It was an altogether adorable night and I think I might love one-on-one time with people I love more than anything else.
And yesterday I had the pleasure of speaking with a man named Larry on the phone about buying a certain bedroom set that I never do want to see again. We were talking about addresses and what his ETA might be to pick it up when all of the sudden he started talking me through it. What? I know, that’s how I felt too. He was telling me that he had been divorced, too. TOO. You know, me and Larry. So much in common. And that he had gotten through it. And then he told me that he’d pray for me and that’s real nice, it really is, but it’s bad enough getting random Larrys out and about buying your bed, but when they start praying for you too…Well, let’s just say that’s when you’re like, yep. this is my life. take a nice inhalation because this is what it smells like–larry praying for you.
And nope, I am not an ounce above Larry’s prayers.
But seven months ago my life didn’t look quite so much like it was in such obvious need of prayer by total strangers who are buying my bed. Not a complaint, though; just an observation. And I am not crying or anything; I actually think it’s kind of funny.
Oh, and tonight I got home to a quiet and dark house. This might sound creepy, but I kind of like it. Because there was the piano, all begging to be played and it was like, you spend all day with kids and they make you necklaces out of gimp and you wear them! and yet you’re gonna just walk on by…?
So I was like, You’re right, piano. And if you made me a necklace out of gimp, I’d wear it too.
So I sat down and played and then I decided to play a ballad that I wrote for the play my brother wrote that he asked me to turn into a musical by way of adding tunes. And if you are an editor, please, have yourself a field day with that terrible sentence.
And there was one song in particular that strikes a chord with me. Jason emailed me, asking me if I would have a very hard time writing a sad song for Esther to sing; that this song should be something about how Xerxes (which happens to be Drew’s screen name for just about everything, ironically enough) falls very short of his role as husband and how Esther is a woman of worth, despite how she is treated by him.
Do you think you could handle writing something like that? he asked, more than a little tongue in cheek.
So I sat down and wrote it in just a few minutes, it felt. Bam. Here’s a little bit of what’s happened to me, a little bit of my childhood, and a little bit of hope anyway.
It’s called You’ll Know Him. And my niece Charis sure did knock it out of the park when she sang it on stage, by the way.
then.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as bum, God, heart, John, life, lot one, nothing, silver spoon, spoon, sun, t touch, touch the sun
I used to be sensitive about my height. I no longer am. I figure that if I were any shorter, I probably wouldn’t be me. And although life feels out of sync with my heart right now and more than a little unrecognizable, to wake up suddenly somebody else would be even less recognizable, I [...]
in which I say absolutely nothing about the 4th of july.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as bedtime, carrots, earthly idea, God, heart, life, longing, man, microphone, summer, The Way, time
Sometimes the summer feels big. Too big; and here I am, small in comparison. The days have lengthened and I am not sure that I can stretch that far too. I am not sure that I can keep up. It is nighttime but not bedtime and I start to feel the way I can sometimes [...]
somebody.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as baby, brand, eye lashes, life, little baby girl, somebodies, Somebody, tiny babies, tiny toes, way
Today I got to hold some dear friends’ brand new little baby girl. She is the sweetest part of life, I think; she is small and so very important, innocent and unashamed of her needs. I think I can learn from her. I think that it is a tricky thing, trying to be strong and [...]
do what you do.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as breezes, counterpoint, Jessica, job, kind, life, little house, safe place, something, sort, what the heck
I’m waiting to get my hair done. And I’m thinking about life and I’m wondering about so many things. It’s strange how there are so many possibilities. It’s a hard sort of dance to perfect; it’s like some sort of counterpoint that, I suppose, keeps things interesting, if nothing else. Because there’s the pulse, the [...]
it’s right here.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as brilliance, giant, God, kind, life, plan, sense of wonder, sleeping giant, tip toe, tip toeing, way
I don’t know about you, but well, the stars. How do they do that? How is it that I’ve seen them so many times now–that surely, I must have memorized the way they fan out in the sky above me, but no. Because there are still nights like this one. When I look up and suddenly [...]
grateful.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings, photography
as aloneness, California, fun, fun thing, God, hand, jenna, life, Ollie, Pacific Ocean, picture, role reversal, sense of togetherness, sister jenna, thing
One fun thing about leggings is that they have no pockets. Okay, so that’s not like the most fun thing, but bear with me. Because see, since they have no pockets, that means that I hand my camera over to other people to store in their pockets for the day. Thank God not all of [...]
the point to it all. or at least some of it.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings, photography
as California, california reptiles, Darby, different signs, dipping bird, Jane Austin, Jason, life, mountain lions, nearby neighbors, Ollie, point, Rich, right, something, time
I saw this sign today. It’s rather hard not to see something that you are photographing, I think. And it has a point. One that I have been trying to live by for a while now. You know, digging into the moment. Realizing that life is happening whether or not it’s what I’d planned and [...]
headlines.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as big dogs, California, hat, heart, life, lifting my heart, order, polka dots, room, sun and the moon, water bug
These are the things that are currently lifting my heart, in no particular order. recording. we’ve been in the studio lately and yes, it’s happening and yes, I’m really pretty very much and totally excited about how it’s sounding dresses. People have been giving me some mighty pretty ones lately. They match summer like a [...]
My name is Jessica and this is a nice, quiet space that I like to cram with words.
