First page of the music archive.

lots.

Posted by jessica on May 18, 2010 with 12 Comments
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Every moment was mapped out for me between the hours of 2:30 and 9:00 tonight.

And it was kind of nice, because everything that I was doing involved either people, music, or dance, and I happen to be in love with all three of those.

And it was kind of tiring.

And it made me very hungry.

Because see, now that I have these invisalign thingies, snacking isn’t really an option. At all. And do you know what the worst part of that is? The other day I had to turn down a fruit snack. A FRUIT SNACK. I love fruit snacks. And a friend offered me one out of the blue.  I quietly declined with a no thank you, and he looked pretty surprised that I didn’t take him up on the offer.

Actually, I am suddenly hyper aware of how many people offer me either food or drinks all the time. It’s like when you have some sort of injury with your toe and all of the sudden everyone and their dog is stepping on your toe, I guess. Probably, nothing actually changed, but now you are just noticing it because, OUCH!! MY TOE IS BROKEN AND YOU JUST BROKE IT AGAIN!!

Well now it’s like that, but with food and drinks and me all being hyper aware of having to say Oh, I’m good! or I already ate (yeah, like five hours ago…). or the plain and simple classic, no, thanks.

Which reminds me of my nephew Ollie. Have I told you this about him? I’m not sure, but here goes, and if hearing a repeat story about my adorable nephew is the worst thing that ever happens to you, I’d say you’re doing just fine.

But when Ollie was about two, I think, he was very strictly trained in the art of good manners (still is, actually). He was quick on the draw with his pleases and thank yous and even the rarer may I’s. But he also had his own agenda, as most of us do. And so when I’d watch him and tell him to please not go out the door right now, since we are staying inside, he’d very courteously toss a no thanks! in my general direction as he made a beeline for the front door.

Only with his little lisp, it sounded more like, No thankth! and he’d be on his merry way, having accomplished both being polite and getting his way.

Or so he thought…Cause I’d catch him before he got wherever it was he was going, and try not to laugh at the same time because goshdarnit, his little no thankth! was adorable even if he was being disobedient.

But right, no thanks. For the snacks. EACH ONE. Even when it’s a fruit snack and goodness knows, but I’d like to have one. And actually, with my invisalign, sometimes I am afraid I sound a little more like Ollie’s no thankth! then I’d like to.

But fruit snacks wasn’t the point, I’m pretty sure.

Though they are certainly good enough to be, I’m also pretty sure.

What I meant to tell you about was that during the last class I taught tonight–a hip-hop class–a guy stuck his head in the door, asking which one of us was Jessica. I told him me and then he asked if he could take pictures of us, because he was trying to enter some kind of photo competition. I said I didn’t mind if the class didn’t mind, and once we consented, he made himself more comfortable in the studio and mentioned to us that he could win some money with one of these photos.

I suggested he share it with us, if that’s the case, and then he awkwardly said, I’d…like…to in a way that indicated he would not.

Which is fine.

Then he started snapping pictures and suddenly I was wondering if tonight was the best night to wear my bright blue headband a little lower on my forehead than normal–a little more 80′s than normal–after all. It’s just those pesky roots, you know. And the pesky not showering every day, too. Makes me reach for headbands lately. Okay, well, just today. But did it have to be a bright one? Well, yes, cause we’re talking me, I guess. But, alright–did it have to be tied so low on my forehead?

Nope.

But it was, anyway.

And now I’m talking as if it wasn’t me who did it in the first place. Like I’m some sad victim–oh no, poor Jess. Looks like she’s showing the symptoms of that new disease: 80′s headbanditis. I guess it was just a matter of time, with that one.

Oh, but enough about the headband.

What I wanted to tell you was that the Picture Guy was standing by the mirrors while I was teaching a combination, and once I asked the class if they were ready to try it with music and they said yes, I joked with him and said, You can certainly try it with the music too!

And then gotcha, jokes on me, cause right away, he started kicking off his shoes and told me with just a little breathlessness since I guess those shoes were tied real tight or something that, actually, he is a dancer too.

Which, I am sorry to admit, did surprise me, because his body was not the physique of a normal dancer. And I know, what’s normal? but what I mean is, he did not in any way at all look how most dancers look.

And then he told me, Yes, I train at the Y; I have since I was 8.

Which is when I wondered what it was he meant by that. Because nobody trains at the Y. If you are four, you might take a little dance class there. When you are six, it might even include fifteen minutes of tap. But when you are a grown man? No, I don’t think you are training at the Y. And if you really want to dance, you for sure do not do it at the Y.

But bless him, because before I knew what was happening he had jumped right in with the other dancers and managed to start the combination in something similar to the starting pose, at least.

And then I turned on the music and didn’t really watch because I didn’t want to embarrass him and also, I needed to be demonstrating for the class, anyway.

Still, this guy–he really went for it. And it made me smile. And it surprised me. And I hope he keeps going for it.

And I hope that if he does win some money for a picture in which I am featured–or more likely my blue headband, worn nice and low on the forehead is featured–then I hope he shares some of the spoils with me.

frightened rabbit song

Posted by jessica on Mar 4, 2010 with 40 Comments
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You know, it’s no secret that I am living in my parents’ basement.

But what you don’t know is that,  in order to get to my room, I walk through what I affectionately refer to as the dog room. And well, I love those dogs, I really do, but they smell. And they are large. And since there is so much of them, that can equal a lot of smell.

And the basement, it’s not exactly beautiful. It’s been lived in, yes; but there’s no carpet, the walls are sort of stripped away, it’s cold, and have I mentioned it kind of smells?

Like dogs.

Two of the nicest dogs you’ll ever meet, but still.

But then I open up the door to what everyone around here calls The Suite and it’s like I’ve been transported to a new world. The first thing I notice is warmth. And then light, cause the walls are painted this cheerful color that is soft and welcoming and with just enough hint of rose to make you wonder what you could have said to make the hallway blush.

It was probably my pop, though; he does love to tease.

But it’s very nice here. Not out there so much, but here. It’s a little sanctuary and I am grateful for it.

And well, the suite is to the basement as music is to my life.

It’s another little sanctuary in the midst of a situation that smells and feels like crap. And that’s what tonight was all about–recording music, I mean, not smelling and feeling like crap.

Not tonight, anyway.

Shane and I are working on putting some songs on an EP so we can hand it out to as many people as we can. We still don’t have a name for our band, but that certainly doesn’t keep us from playing music.

So this is a song that Shane wrote on his little mandolin that says aloha and everything. Though he’ll probably be upset that I wrote that part about aloha; he doesn’t like that his mandolin is stuck in a perpetual greeting, I guess, and has mentioned that to me before.

Oh, and Shane is playing every instrument you hear.

He’s stupid talented like that.

Except, of course, he’s not the one snapping. That’s all me. I will say that he did try to snap along, but since we only had one pair of headphones and, as the lead snapper (have I mentioned I have a wicked snap?), of course I got to wear them. So I tried to cue him silently as to when the first chorus kicked in, but it didn’t work. I’d never before seen a snap have a stutter but now I am pretty sure that I have. Let’s just say that after that little fiasco, he left the snapping to me.

Naturally.

Anyway, listen.

And try not to be jealous of my mad snapping skills.

frightened rabbit song

a pretty good week. yes I just said that.

Posted by jessica on Jan 9, 2010 with 12 Comments
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This has actually been a pretty good week, all things considered. I know, I know, WHAT? Before you make sure that you didn’t accidentally click on some pop-up add that whisked you away from thislifeinwriting.com faster than you could say the word emo, let me assure you: you haven’t left. And that’s what I said [...]

this is your freedom

Posted by jessica on Dec 17, 2009 with 19 Comments
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I had a little argument with my friend after walking by a billboard in Japan that said something to the effect of music=life He argued that you don’t need music to be alive and that’s true. Technically. But there’s a lot more to living than technicalities. And I am pretty sure that somebody who holds [...]

something to sing about

Posted by jessica on Nov 28, 2009 with 14 Comments
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Tonight we broke out the craft table and started coloring. Christmas scenes. The manger. Evergreens and wreaths. And now I am listening to Christmas music and instead of trying to wonder what it all means, I am just letting it happen. The transformation that comes from believing in something greater than yourself. The small inkling [...]

bitter;better

Posted by jessica on Oct 19, 2009 with No Comments
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I’ve been writing a lot of music lately. I don’t know if any of it is really good, but it helps me and doesn’t hurt anybody, so I will keep doing it. Somebody said once that, after experiencing pain, you either get better or you get bitter. I really want to choose the former. And [...]

some good things have happened in memphis

Posted by jessica on Sep 26, 2009 with No Comments
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This. Was. Just. Amazing. Sun Records, here in downtown Memphis, a mile away from my hotel. And it is responsible for the music that we have today. This is where 18 year old Elvis Presley walked in off the street and spent four dollars to make a record for his mother’s birthday. Or so he [...]

back on the road and a shoulder clap gone dreadfully wrong

Posted by jessica on Sep 23, 2009 with No Comments
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So I’m back. And it’s really okay. Better than okay, actually, if how I felt on stage tonight is any indication. It was a blur of bright lights, too-red EXIT signs, the glare of all the many people who watch us with their glasses on, and the already prevalent ache in my feet–but beyond that…this [...]

playing tokyo

Posted by jessica on Aug 29, 2009 with No Comments
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I think I drank my weight in water today. Two shows and a gig makes for one very tired and thirsty individual, I have realized. Add to that the emotional aspect of being so far from home and communication with loved ones feeling difficult at best, I think tired might be an understatement. But, I [...]

she’s a Martin, but that’s not her name.

Posted by jessica on Aug 19, 2009 with No Comments
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I have been thinking about this for a while. Especially while on the road. And especially when I don’t have access to a piano. People seem to be under the impression that I am very very busy. When in reality, I am not so busy, I just am not around. And there’s a big difference. [...]