because I have to.
in I Lift My Eyes Up
as amazing discoveries, car, darn, DID, experience, glove compartment, growing pains, hand, handstand, handstands, human spirit, miracle, news, oh shoot, place, resilience, shoot, Yesterday, yoga teacher
Yesterday I went to open up my glove compartment in my little ghettofabulous car and the whole thing just fell out. Like, onto the floor. I laughed. And then? I fixed it. Well, I stuck it back in place, I mean. Around these parts, we call that fixed.
Yesterday I had to print some music and the printer was jammed. It was annoying. But then I fixed it. And I am now five sheets of music richer for it.
Today I did a handstand. I was spotted, but still. I DID IT. And you know why it happened? Because the yoga teacher asked if anyone in the room had any handstand experience. And not a soul raised their hand. Then she went right over to me and said I was going to demonstrate. News to me. She spotted me and then was all, “See class, as she goes up to her handstand…” And proceeded to wait for me to do just that. So I was like, OH SHOOT. And then I did it. And acted like it weren’t no thing at all. But secretly, it was a thing. Like, a brand new thing.
My point is that it’s amazing what we can do when we have to.
Like when I fixed my glove compartment because I wanted to be able to close the darn thing.
Like when I fixed the printer because I needed to print some music.
Like when I did a handstand because my teacher used me to demonstrate and the whole class was watching.
Like when I kept living when all I wanted to do was fall asleep forever.
I think that annoying or painful or even crushing situations can result in amazing discoveries within ourselves. I think that the human spirit has a resilience that is a miracle akin to the lame walking and the blind seeing. I think life is very messy but we clean up good and then we go on to do handstands and run many more miles than we ever thought we could and if we had gone to sleep forever we would have missed all that and that’s no good at all and even the mess is worth being alive for, if you think about it.
I think we grow and grow and grow.
And then we grow some more.
And growing pains are no joke, but man, it’s worth it (her brain tells her heart over and over again).
we’re all broken sometimes (it’s gonna get better)
in MP3
as bitter waters, cannot, Cause, combination of words, fly, gonna, mail, news, ocean, perfect combination, phone, song, swimming, tonight, way, while
I wrote this song tonight…
we’re all broken sometimes…it’s gonna get better
you don’t know lullabies, you just know how to say good-bye
you haven’t heard the the perfect combination of words for quite a while
you walk alone, try not to look at your phone
you say you’re okay this way,
what you don’t know, don’t know is it’s true
you’re gonna be alright, you’re gonna be just fine
if you can’t believe me now then I know that you will in time
be alright, yeah, you’ll be just fine cause you’re more like a bird than anything, yes, you’ll fly so high and even sing and when you do I’ll try not to say that I told you so, cause you feel so low, but this cannot last forever
and I promise you this…it’s gonna get better
you still read fairytales and you still check your mail
you can’t help hoping that some good news will still prevail
you’re busy swimming in an ocean that you never made
it’s bitter waters are the healing that you still crave
bits and pieces.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as bits and pieces, calais, car, colby, elp, everything, farm animals, Fearless, friend sarah, heat, home, lyrics, misnomer, music, news, Peace, pig, Shane, song
I have to wake up early, so I won’t write much. But I will say that one of the best things about friends going to far far away places is when they come back. Shane is home now and this is such lovely news. I drew him a pig playing a guitar as a welcome [...]
proof.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, photography
as bad news, business, C.S. Lewis, candid photo, fair warning, haha, longwood gardens, mom, news, photo, pop, proof, scandal, smoking marijuana, sort, stone, trance, white witch, Witch
Bad news. It looks like C.S. Lewis’ White Witch is still in the business of turning people to stone. Exhibit A:Just don’t say that you didn’t get fair warning. (actually this was a completely candid photo. At least for my pop. My mom knew I was taking the picture (as you can tell), but pop [...]
it’s joyful somewhere. which sounds sadder than I mean it.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as auntie annes, falsity, gathering storm, God, groundhog, Jesus, news, part, pretzel, time, Trenton, way, yellow pants
I have a friend who once told me that he was thinking about Jesus a lot. I asked him what it was that he was thinking, and he told me that he liked to think about the things Jesus did on earth. The practical things. Like eat strawberries. He said that he wondered if Jesus [...]
good/bad news.
in Funny Stuff, Thoughts and Feelings
as bad news, cheese, free massage, I, Jessica, Mac, massage, massage therapist, news, photo box, seat, word archives
The good news is that I discovered an abs class at my gym that makes my abs wonder what it is they ever did to me anyway. The bad news is that it now hurts to laugh. The good news is that the instructor is also a massage therapist, and even told me that she’d [...]
my news, good and bad.
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as bad taste in my mouth, blond hair, cupcake, God, irish creme, magic wand, mail, mom, news, Shane, today, Tuesday
The good news is that I got a whole new set of sparkly, springtime colored bobby pins; the bad news is that I am not actually five years old. The good news is that my mom bought me a bailey’s irish creme cupcake; the bad news is that my pop ate it first. The good [...]
