the week in pictures.
in Loved Ones, there are pictures here, Thoughts and Feelings
as bob, Buoyant, few words, friend kevin, friend nick, friendships, gift, girl, half, heart, Jess, life, little apple, lucky girl, mittens, new friend, nothing, puppy, sign, something, Speaking, tonight, water, year
And a few words, too, I guess.
Today, I marveled at life. I’m feeling all whole and full inside lately. Buoyant, even. Like a little apple that continues to happily bob along in the water.
It’s really good. Life is really good. And lately, I’ve been feeling it.
“Nothing cataclysmically amazing has happened,” I told my friend Kevin who called me from LA tonight, “But I’m just feeling so good inside.”
“That’s great, Jess!” he said. “And it’s okay to feel happy just, you know, like normally. Even if there aren’t great events that are making it so.”
This is good to know.
And my mom–she is good to know. 50% Italian and 100% adorable, that one. And since I am half of whatever she is, I suppose that makes me 25% Italian and 50% adorable.
50% is better than nothing!
Oh, and I like to make cards. “I am happiest–absolutely thrilled!–when I am making something,” I told my friend Nick tonight. “Even if it’s just a puppy sign. My heart sings when I am busy creating, is the thing.”
Speaking of making things, these friendships have been years in the making. Decades now, actually. I’m a lucky girl, to have two such as them love me.
And who doesn’t like tiny mittens? They were on the outside of a gift from a new friend this year. And I knew just what to do with them.
what a day!
in Thoughts and Feelings
as area code, collarbone, date, day, exercise, feeling, friend, friendlier place, High, high line, kind, Line, martial arts, mine, nothing, romance, roommates, shoulders, state, stranger, sun, time, time one, today, train, warmup, weather, whoa, word
Today was an undeniably good day.
I met David, a friend of mine who I have not seen for some time, and together, we strolled the High Line. It was once an elevated train here in New York, but has for some time just been empty. But now it’s renovated and planted all over with gardens and a lovely, among-the-highrises stroll. And the weather was absolutely perfect.
A little too perfect. Because now my shoulders and collarbone are sun kissed. Okay, more like I look like the sun made-out with me. I am, in a word: burnt.
And then I went and did about four hours of martial arts. Whoa. I am exhausted. But feeling pretty happy. There is nothing like moving about. It puts me in this heightened state; it solves my problems. I am not sure why, but the world seems a far friendlier place when I am moving.
Oh, and I auditioned for this DVD exercise/vocal thing last week, called The Broadway Warmup, and I was offered the job today. Nice.
In other news, the stranger with whom I unprecedentedly agreed to go on a date last week has been texting me. I did not, however, text him back today. I need to just say that I am not really interested in what he is interested in. Or I guess I could just not respond, but that sounds mean. Anyway, a pretty sad part is that I cannot, for the life of me, remember the guy’s name. So I refer to him among my friends by his area code. “I think I need to tell 917 that I am just not interested in any kind of romance,” I told David.
“Just don’t respond; 917 will get the message,” he replied.
But 917. How pitiful. Kind of funny, though, too.
pictures. not yet edited.
in photography
as blood, creepy, defense, editing, haha, Jess, mom, nice things, nobody, nothing, photography, pop, response, shhhhhh, Stuff, Sugar
*all of these were shot by dirty sugar photography and shhhhhh! I’m not quite supposed to show them yet, cause nothing has been done to them in terms of editing and stuff. but, anyway. thoughts? faves? opinions? these are just a few of them I have to choose from…so feel free to help me out. [...]
(good?)-bye.
in Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as bye, Christmas, face, hellos, impression, Latshaw, Loving, nothing, path of life, stream, time in my life, today, way, WEST
Why is it called good-bye? What is good about it? Okay, I can think of a few people for whom saying those two words–either literally or figuratively–has been a good thing. But mostly, it is sad. Actually, when I was going through that time in my life that made me think about what it would [...]
then.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as bum, God, heart, John, life, lot one, nothing, silver spoon, spoon, sun, t touch, touch the sun
I used to be sensitive about my height. I no longer am. I figure that if I were any shorter, I probably wouldn’t be me. And although life feels out of sync with my heart right now and more than a little unrecognizable, to wake up suddenly somebody else would be even less recognizable, I [...]
I will not live a hungry existence.
in I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings, Uncategorized
as America, day, ferry, Japan, Mount Fuji, nothing, one eyed willie, peg leg, point space, right, something, Willie, working in japan
When I was working in Japan, my friends and I decided to take a day and travel a little loop around Mount Fuji. And I will not get into the magic that made that day so vibrant, but I will tell you that around midday I found myself very very hungry. It was right before [...]
lately.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as autonomy, California, california time, Jessica, man, nothing, poor girl, someone, sound of water, sweatshirt, time, way
Lately I have been living on California time and I need to remember that the morning still happens and a lot of people even see it. Lately I have felt like hiding and people keep finding me anyway. I know this is a good thing, but sometimes I cannot tell you what I am planning. [...]
whelmed.
in Thoughts and Feelings
as change, florescent lights, God, good, guard your heart, nothing, sheer effort, something, sorry buddy, sunlight streams, way
There are some things that are just plain good. Like when my three year old nephew reminisces, saying things like, When I was young…Sorry buddy, but you’re not even four yet. Um, still young. And when you take a nighttime walk and get past the florescent lights in the parking lot. Way past them, actually. [...]
look, I’m smiling
in Funny Stuff, I Lift My Eyes Up, Thoughts and Feelings
as bald man, bald men, caption, deep in your heart, God, Isaiah, isaiah 9, lot, man god, nothing, something, tease
Sometimes I open my Bible and it’s not an epiphany. Sometimes it’s more like, Thanks for reminding me about how bears sometimes eat you if you tease a bald man, God, but couldn’t you have given me a word that was a little more, ah, relevant? But I guess I don’t regularly tease bald men, [...]
unbidden
in Funny Stuff, Loved Ones, Thoughts and Feelings
as Believe, Cher, Escapade, haunting melody, Janet Jackson, jenna, memories, mind, nothing, perfect hair, pop diva, press rewind, room, sentimental/inspiration, something, song, thoughts/life, trapper keepers
It’s funny how the mind works. One second you’re crying about something or other, feeling absolutely overpowered by the strength of your emotion, positive that there is room for nothing else. Ever. When all of the sudden something utterly ridiculous pops into your mind. It’s like the guy at the funeral that cracks a joke: [...]
